Job Proposal Update

I met with my boss and her boss around 9:30 this morning. I showed them my proposal and left feeling confident.  I felt heard.
At 1:30 another meeting was underway between my boss, her boss and the existing position who is leaving.
My boss and her boss are meeting with human resources tomorrow at 9am moving forward with my proposed change. They are the last group to convince this is a good business decision/change.  I"m so excited I can't even put it into words.

Wow, Go to Sleep Night Owl...

It's after 2:30 in the morning here and I have to be to work at 8am. I went to bed at 11 and couldn't sleep because I have an opportunity at work that could change my life. 2010 has been so good to me career wise that I can't believe another opportunity has fallen in my lap.  I owe it to my manger .. my new manager 2009... She believed in me and helped raise my self esteem to levels no other manager wanted to.  Sure, everyone saw the opportunity in me but no one used me to help promote themselves or myself for that matter. She gave me the confidence to promote myself and I'll forever be grateful. I am approaching her boss tomorrow with a proposal that moves me into a different managerial role that still reports to my present boss yet gives me more opportunity as well as present growth. It's a win-win situation for both of us. I just finished the PowerPoint I'll present and I'm pretty proud of it. I think the solution I have proposed to the current problem will put a lot of minds at ease... I'm sharing this with you because my family sleeps and I just wanted to "talk"... I realized in doing this presentation I have to "sell" me and my idea and I was really proud of the "value" I gave myself to the proposal.  It's a turning point for me regardless of the outcome. Pray for me and send me good vibes friends... I really want this to happen.

Don't Judge a Post By The Title...

The scales and I have not spoke since Friday. I wanted to visit with her this morning but I was running late. It's rather ironic that I would turn to her to assess my damage. I don't trust the bitch when I do good. Why would I trust her when I waiver a bit? I need to own my journey. I need to speak up and quit allowing others to help guide my journey. There is not one food that passes a person's lips that taste as good as success does.  At times, I feel like I'm stuck with no voice. No ability to say "No" I won't eat that. Sometimes I feel like I have the winning numbers to a Million Dollar jackpot, when it comes to losing this weight, but feel I don't deserve to win so I sabotage it. I burn the ticket.

Friends, those statements are about value. They're about how much you value yourself to keep going forward in your journey.  Time and time again you read that it doesn't stop when you hit the magic number on the scale. It doesn't stop when you naturally drink tons and tons of water a day. It doesn't stop when you work out 3-5 times a week.  It's all of these things combined and more that create your healthy lifestyle. You can't expect to hit home runs if your feet never touch second and/or third base. You don't have to do it all at once but start out slow. Right now, I'm focusing on taking all of the value I put in food and putting more value in me. I need a clear head to move forward. I must be getting better because my mind says pretty nice things to me lately.  It's also reminding me that I need to put exercise into this journey... rather taunting me right now, however my mind has started to revel on how fast my body will adapt to exercise and become stronger as each day goes by. It's all of those little things I can't do now that exercise will cause me to start doing again. Watching it happen will be the measuring tool. I have just little over a year to reach the goal of going to Memorial Day 2011. That's a mere 365 days. I will not be sitting here posting a year from now at 400 pounds. It's not going to happen. I refuse to let it happen because I do own my journey. Are you owning yours?